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Over the years, anger, fear, guilt, shame, and resentment were frequent companions. Even after receiving & accepting the thought that life experiences produces character, I still permitted the dark side to seduce me at times.

On my 21st birthday, I sat in the tub and cried. I felt that I was growing up too fast and had not accomplished some of the things I wanted.

It would take me a few years to realize that I wasn’t fulfilled living someone else’s life—my mother’s dream of becoming a nurse. My commitment to becoming a nurse stemmed from my father’s interference with her dream of becoming a nurse and the need to program my navigation system with a sense of purpose after years of sexual abuse.

But, I never let go of the truth that there are no coincidences. Every experience and emotion helped me to find my way back to my Self. My faith in a higher power and my student perspective to life kept me going.

1. Anger- I would not desire my truth and to build a character foundation.

2. Fear- I would not know the difference between what I want and don’t want.

3. Guilt-I would not know what forgiveness and innocence mean.

3. Shame- I would not resolve to strengthen my weaker parts.

4. Resentment- I would not know what it means to focus on my life.

5. Vengeance- I would not know compassion that humans are frail and on the same journey as me.

Although I can list many reasons to justify my anger, I choose to move in the direction of light. The only monster there is, is the one I create by not managing my emotions effectively. Who I create is often who and what I attract.

Am I better or worse for my emotions? When I feel that they serve an underlying purpose to unite me with my purpose, I can only be better.

Now, amid the coronavirus pandemic, I am becoming me. I am no longer fearful of dying with my Truth. I am determined to live my Truth.

Make this lifetime great one moment, one day at a time.

Timika S Chambers